The merge of science and art, but this is mostly art
I have a few weeks until school starts up again. I’m and upcoming junior, and I still dont know what I want to do with my life. Im registered as a physics major, and I have quite a few chemistry classes under my belt, but not one physics class. We’ve touched on the subject in Calculus, in practical applications such as velocity and acceleration and speed of objects (Basically how fast something is changing speed when they are at a certain point). Once I learn it, it comes (mostly) easy to me, but (mostly) I dont have the motivation to learn it.
Naturally, in everything I do, I want to do it for God’s glory. So following Jesus’s example isn’t a career plan (at least it isn’t mine), it’s how I will go about living my life. That being said, I still have the question, “What do I want to do?”
People have tried to help me with this venture. Advisors/Parents/Friends have asked me all the generic (but valid) questions.
Q: What do you like to do for fun?
A: Artsy stuff, like sketching, making t-shirts, photoshop, coming up with tabletop/rpg games** but never implementing them.
(This makes me think of a graphic design major, which is an idea I’ve entertained every now and then. Making money is important* to live on, but it’s not the most important thing, so the whole “starving artist” thing doesn’t drag me down too much. I’ve seen friends take classes like Design 1 and Intro to Drawing, and it seems so systematic. Hours of classes sketching fruits and painting landscapes makes me want to punch easels in their faces. This merge of “art” and “class” reminds me of middle school, where they replaced my creativity in writing and free thinking with words like “elaboration,” and “structured,” and “essay.”)
Q: What are you good at?
A: Math and Science. Ask me in 3rd grade what I wanted to be when I grow up, and I would tell you a scientist. Childhood memories (and some boxes in the attic) are littered with things like electric cars, motors, fans, buzzers, lights, and a tangled mess of wires. High school is where I discovered chemistry and physics and potato cannons and whatnot.
(When I learn it, I’ve pretty much got it, so I seem to have a talent in this subject. The science thing is really hard. There are so many classes related to these sciences and its alot of work to get through them all (successfully). I understand and accept that it is hard work, but I dont have any motivation to pursue this scientist idea. I can see why friends of mine are doing what they do by seeing them put thier talents pour there talents and passions into thier classes. Music major for the musician. Sign language for the one who loves to meet and talk with people, art for the artistic.)
Science for the creative mind…waitaminute.
I have come to a (possibly temporary) conclusion that I am an artist trapped in a scientist’s body. Which leads to the final question:
Q: Where do your talents meet your passions?
(Prayer version: “God, who are you trying to tell me I am? And what do you have in mind for my future?***”)
This is the place I am at now. Im trying to discover what I like to do and am good at. I’ve discovered I have a systematic approach to things, like the game-system-creating thing. I take something people use to be creative and have fun with (RPG gaming or tabletop warfare)** and create a system by which it is used. I would love to try out one of these systems sometime, but I never really get an opportunity. Maybe there is something out there that I can blend my talent for the sciences and my passion for the arts that can motivate me to follow physics or change to something more suitable.
Or I could just switch to Comm Studies, get out faster (meaning cheaper), and go back when I have a better idea.
OK, times up, gotta get back to studying Calculus.
* I believe that God will provide if I am in need, but I need to do my part. I dont think I am ment to sell everything and walk the streets of the world with one tunic and a walking stick spreading the gospel. I also believe God has the ability to make me eat those words. We are where we are for a reason, and right now I am in Greensboro. God will light my path as long as I follow him and dont give up.
**Im such a geek
***A friend helped me understand this. maybe mystery keeps us from losing heart. God reveals things when the time is right. Until that time, maybe He is building us up and strengthing us to where we can handle what is upcoming.
